Coming To Terms With Having a Baby

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I’m now in the second trimester of my pregnancy. I found the first trimester difficult because I was extremely anxious about having another miscarriage. Consequently, I shut out the reality of the situation. Last week I attended the dating scan and saw that despite my anxieties, the baby is doing fine.

Following the scan, I decided to create this picture as a way of engaging with the realities of my situation – that I am having a baby. I’ve opened the curtains and engaged with what is happening and what is going to happen. Just writing this has set off the tears again! I guess it’s a mixture of anxiety and joy that the dream I’ve held for so long is finally set to happen in six months time.

 

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Thank You

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After eleven rounds of fertility treatment I am blessed to have a little person growing inside of me. The photo is from the week 7 scan. My first creative instinct following the scan was to create an image expressing my gratitude to all the people who helped to create my baby. It is taking time for the news to sink in, and creating this image was a way of tentatively engaging with the situation.

 

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Cheerful Clown

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I created this image an an antidote to feeling very stressed. Whilst trawling through art therapy videos on YouTube I came across a video about clown therapy as a profession. The video talked about using clowns to help children in hospitals. The idea of using friendly looking clowns therapeutically stayed with me and inspired this image.

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Dance in the Dark

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Whilst very stressed I decided to create this simple doll picture as a distraction. This image was influenced by therapeutic doll making videos that I found on YouTube. The idea is that you make the dolls simply, not worrying about lots of neat sewing, and using whatever materials you have to hand. Although I felt in darkness, I still had some sparkle and the energy to keep going.

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Holding Hands

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A piece on acknowledging the different types of relationships between people.

 

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A Different Path

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Sometimes the situations that we are born into, or the things that happen to us on life’s journey, lead us to follow different paths to what is considered “normal” in our culture or society. This is certainly true for me.

In the picture, the yellow path is the “normal” path, where lots of people travel.

The colourful vertical path is the “different” path. I wanted to make it more colourful and varied to indicate difference. Some of the elements have meaning: At the top is a cloud with a silver lining containing the words “Making the best of things”; the card symbols are the cards we are dealt in life; the black and white stripes a reminder that things are not always black and white; and at the bottom, the black sheep – how we can feel or appear for doing things differently. I put more than one person on the “different” path because I am not alone in feeling I am on a different path; in fact many people are  on a path that feels different in some aspect of their life.

In the background are planes where the different path might occur: relationships, culture, religion, physical attributes, mental attributes, career, family, reproduction, residence, geographical location.

 

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Letting Go of a Sperm Donor

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I started another round of IVF last week and was forced to choose a new sperm donor. I have encountered an emotional blockage during this process which has made it difficult for me to accept a new donor. I did really like my previous donor and am not sure if the emotional blockage has been about losing him, or the previous IVF losses in general. I decided to create this picture of letting go of my last donor in the hope that it will help me to move forward.

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