Month: September 2016

Problem Coffee

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Over the past three months I’ve had problems with a gentleman (I’ve named him “problem chap”) after accepting his friend request on Facebook. We met some time ago at a support group. Every message he’s sent me has been inadvertently triggering. He didn’t do anything bad as such. However it caused me to project my parents onto him in a big way. It has left me feeling unable to tolerate being in the same room as him (because I feel very threatened) and needing extra support at the support group. The idea of going for a coffee with him in order to learn that actually he’s not the monster I’m projecting on to him came to me. I decided to depict this in a painting to engage with the difficult feelings and see what came up, and hence we have “Problem Coffee”! Being willing to go for coffee with problem chap in the real world remains a long way off.

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My Art Work is in a Public Gallery

I now have two of my artistic creations displayed in a local art gallery. The gallery displays work by professional artists most of the time but I learned of an exhibition that was open to artists of all abilities and decided to enter two pieces of work. This is the first time I have displayed my work somewhere it will be seen by the general public and by several thousand people.

The brief was to decorate a 5 inch canvas however you liked. I wanted to create a piece which had an important message and that expressed my thoughts and beliefs. I came up with Anchored In The Present. This is a reminder to mindfully return to the present moment and to anchor oneself in the present. Inside the circle is the calmer state of the present moment. The circle is a rescue ring. I used zentangle patterns around the outside because drawing these patterns is a way of returning to the present moment.

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My first attempt at Anchored in the Present didn’t go to plan so I decided to reuse the canvas and covered it with one of my blackwork embroidery designs. It is called Smile . I hope that people seeing it in the gallery will smile when they see it.

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Here’s a view of both pieces on the wall in the gallery, amongst other people’s great work.

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I’m really pleased to have my work in the gallery. A lot of effort went into these pieces and in finding the courage to put my work out there. This has given me a confidence boost and shown me that I do have something valuable to contribute.

 

 

Fuck Off I’m Doing IVF

 

Whilst writing a flame letter to my therapist after she left a triggering treat on her website, a part of me emerged who wanted to fight for me and my IVF dream. This part says Fuck Off, I’m doing IVF. So here I am, lashing out against the challenges which accompany me as I go through IVF. The zigzags and crosses are my anger – I didn’t want to waste any canvas. The heart is the love that I deserve. I’m now off to burn the flame letter.

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Despite my financial worries

Despite my lack of money to provide for a baby

Despite nonsense postcards from my mother

Despite not having a job

Despite having little income

Despite having no practical support

Despite my therapist adding to my worries

Despite having a body full of stress hormones

Despite having thoughts of killing myself

Despite having intrusive thoughts

Despite having self harming thoughts

Despite problem chap not buggering off

Despite my head imagining spiders in my house

Despite people betraying confidences

Despite my stomach having been poorly for weeks

Despite my house being in a rubbish state

Despite not having done fertility yoga

© northernrose17 and A Therapeutic Art Journey, 2016. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to northernrose17 and A Therapeutic Art Journey with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.

Sashiko Sewing and Brazilian Themed Embroidery

Yesterday I travelled to the ICHF Stitching, Sewing & Hobbycraft show and I wanted to share a couple of things from my visit.

Firstly I joined a workshop where we learned about Japanese Sashiko sewing. The basic idea is that you sew lines of running stitch to create a pattern or design. An evenweave fabric is used, such as linen. You can get the fabrics with the pattern printed onto the fabric. You sew the design and then when you wash it, the pattern washes off leaving your sewing. This style of sewing has it’s own specialist thread, needle and thimble. It’s one of those hobbies which can be quite relaxing. Below is the sample I worked on during the workshop. I don’t intend finishing it because this design doesn’t appeal to me, but I like the idea of sewing in lines.

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Here is another example. Image source http://www.embroidery.rocksea.org/hand-embroidery/sashiko/sashiko-lesson-3/

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The second thing I wanted to share was some work from an exhibition of embroidery on a Brazilian theme. They were a mixture of hand and machine embroidered pieces and were beautiful.

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