nurturing

Gifts For Me

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As a younger child, one of the biggest parts of Christmas is receiving and opening presents. As we grow older, we learn that Christmas is really about love, hope and giving. But the child part that likes to receive does remain inside. And when as an adult you are likely to receive few or no Christmas presents, it is painful for that child part. To support my child part, I have chosen her some presents from toy and gift catalogues. I am showing her that she is cared for and loved.

 

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An Emotional Weave

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I experienced a compulsion to create this piece which lasted a week before I started work, meaning it was important. I did not know what the piece about, only that textures and the colours cream, brown and yellow needed to feature in it. Over that week I received a couple of insights. I was unsure what shade of yellow was needed but felt drawn towards a greenish yellow. Then I remembered, during the second half of my teenage years I had a top in this colour. The second insight was “holding my hand”. The purpose of this piece is to offer support teenage me, specifically ages 16-18, when I was growing up emotionally alone.

The colours used are significant:

  • yellowy green is teenage me and the emotional pain from that time
  • sunshine yellow is hope
  • pink is care for me
  • cream and beige is support for me
  • brown and grey started out as grounding, though I’m not sure about them now.

This piece is read from bottom to top. The narrow line of pink near the bottom left represents the emotional care that I received at that time, i.e. not much. The size of the yellowy green areas gradually increased as my willingness to feel the pain increased. Working these areas released a lot of grief. I worked slowly through this, supporting myself. After the largest area of yellowy green I needed support so tried to surround myself with more cream. Later in the smaller area of yellowy green, I acknowledged that the pain is still there and I offered myself some care through the pink. Hope for a better future is present throughout (yellow). There were a lot of threads to tidy up at the end and working through these felt like nurturing myself.

This piece has been emotional and sensually driven, and I feel like I have done a good piece of therapeutic work in this weave.

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I Understand The Feelings Are Difficult

Whilst having a difficult day with my head, I stopped and asked, what did I need in order to settle my anxious thoughts, and what I came up with was someone to empathise with my difficult thoughts and feelings. And then came the idea to create this image so that I could reflect empathy back at myself. I thought of a star fish simply as something calming and added the shell for a bit more interest. This is the first painting I have completed for several months. I found that the process of painting itself did slow down my mind. I intend doing some more painting over the next few weeks.

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I Love You

After using a guided meditation where you spent time with your inner child, I decided to create this expression of love for my inner child. 

 

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Stand Firm In Treacle

 

When experiencing difficult thoughts or feelings we have a choice. We can run away, we can resort to harmful behaviours, or we can sit with and be accepting of the thoughts or feelings. I am feeling very anxious about an appointment I have later today and I have created this image to reinforce the message that I can be with the difficult feelings and be okay, i.e. I can stand firm in treacle. I have given myself a heart pendant to give myself some support and love.

 

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Compulsion to Work

I am feeling pulled in two opposing directions. One is the compulsion to “work” on the difficult feelings that I am experiencing, the other the need to distract, support and nurture myself. I remember reading in a self-help book that the urge to “work” on problems is a mind trick which doesn’t actually lead to the resolution of the troubling issue. It would be more beneficial to me to go watch a kids movie, spend time with nature or spend time on a hobby.

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Recognising That I’ve Gone Off Track

I’ve gone back to expressing some of my thoughts using paper and pencil as I am experiencing difficult feelings and paper and pencil enables me to illustrate and express my thoughts much more quickly than paint and canvas.

Here I am recognising that I have taken a harmful path in response to a difficult issue. I am questioning where the point of making a choice which path to follow took place and how I get get myself back on a more helpful path.

 

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