pregnancy

Staying Connected

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My previous behaviour when someone has done something that I didn’t like has been to distance myself from them, for days, even weeks, sometimes permanently. I think it was threatening to me that they behaved as they did. Separating myself from them was a coping mechanism. My current therapist is the first person I have learned about staying connected with when we have challenges in our relationship.

Recently my baby’s movements suddenly changed from pleasant tickling sensations to strong kicks and thrusts inside my stomach. It was a shock. I didn’t like it at all. I saw myself distancing myself from my baby. For days I did not want to speak to her or play music to her. I did not want to interact with her. This concerned me. After her birth, I cannot emotionally withdraw from my baby for days just because she does something that I don’t like, especially something which is natural and age appropriate. I don’t want to treat her in this way. I decided to create this image in order to work with my feelings around staying connected with my baby when she does things that I might not like in the hope it will help me after she arrives.

 

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Mindfully Noticing Pregnancy

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The first half of my pregnancy was spent anxiously waiting to see if it was to be a viable pregnancy, and then coming to terms with actually having a little person growing inside of me. The second half of my pregnancy has so far been consumed by preparing for her arrival. It has felt very important to me to pause and to be present with what is actually happening right now. Many times I have consumed food or drink and forgotten to notice how it tasted. This will be the only time I carry a baby and I want to experience it.

 

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Coming To Terms With Having a Baby

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I’m now in the second trimester of my pregnancy. I found the first trimester difficult because I was extremely anxious about having another miscarriage. Consequently, I shut out the reality of the situation. Last week I attended the dating scan and saw that despite my anxieties, the baby is doing fine.

Following the scan, I decided to create this picture as a way of engaging with the realities of my situation – that I am having a baby. I’ve opened the curtains and engaged with what is happening and what is going to happen. Just writing this has set off the tears again! I guess it’s a mixture of anxiety and joy that the dream I’ve held for so long is finally set to happen in six months time.

 

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Thank You

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After eleven rounds of fertility treatment I am blessed to have a little person growing inside of me. The photo is from the week 7 scan. My first creative instinct following the scan was to create an image expressing my gratitude to all the people who helped to create my baby. It is taking time for the news to sink in, and creating this image was a way of tentatively engaging with the situation.

 

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